Colour Perception:
Like its companion colours Manipulation Green and Blame Brown, Resentment Green is a toxic colour muddied with Brown. Resentment Green sharp feel to it, like an unrelenting harshness. Some psychics experience this ‘sharpness’ as a bitter taste in the mouth or a sudden sharp smell that makes you recoil, like a strong vinegar or acid. In the aura or body, it feels like a sinking, hollow and hard sensation in the chest, along with a nauseating churning and ruminating just beneath this. It often makes the breathing feel tight and hot and a burning heat or pain may be felt in the digestive system, usually somewhere between the upper abdomen and throat.
Light Characteristics:
In order to manage Resentment Green in a positive way, we must first become mindful of our own mental and emotional state. This requires the mental discipline to stand back from ourselves long enough to observe the way our thoughts are shaping our emotions. It takes courage to be honest with ourselves about our resentful thoughts and feelings and take responsibility for them. It is often far more tempting to pretend we only have nice feelings or that the negative feelings we do have are somebody else’s fault.
You may need to speak up and be honest in order to improve a situation which feels unfair. Stay focused on the positive outcome you desire and do not allow your feelings to inflame the situation. Imagine being the other person. What approach would this person be most receptive to? If all else fails, find a mediator such as a counsellor, remove yourself from the situation, or find a way to accept and be at peace with the way things are. Sometimes this means finding a different way of looking at the same situation.
Shadow Characteristics:
Resentment is an angry, hurt feeling held inside, usually about something that seems unfair or unjust. Whilst the occasional, brief bout of bitterness is harmless and quite natural, the biochemistry of habitual, excessive resentment can be particularly corrosive, hence the traditional perception that ‘resentment eats away at you from the inside’. Unexpressed anger tends to grow rather than subside, festering away and bubbling up as passive anger or erupting in mini explosions.
People with a vested interest in being or appearing ‘nice’ often hide their anger. On the surface, they appear quite friendly, but their tone and body language often betray the truth hidden behind pleasant words and smiles. Or they may tell everyone about their anger except the person they are actually angry with, relying on ‘Chinese whispers’ to do the work for them. These mixed messages can be very confusing to others and tend to make relationships worse rather than better.
Some people feel resentful after they have said yes when they would rather say no, usually because they want to avoid feeling guilty. Unfortunately, they usually end up feeling guilty about feeling resentful and resentful about being made to feel guilty and so on. Being honest and speaking up in the first place can help us avoid this vicious cycle. If you say yes when you want to say no, your resentment will eventually find a way to express itself. You might take it out on someone else or subconsciously sabotage the help you have offered by getting sick, being late or breaking something.