Many years ago I made a rare visit to a psychic for a wonderful reading that still seems relevant to my life in so many ways. I remember her saying “You are studying a degree in order to attain qualifications after your name so you will be taken seriously, but your real training is being provided by your spirit guides”. At the time of the reading I was studying naturopathy and I had no idea I would be working alongside this lady six months later doing my own readings for people.
Healer, Reiki Master, Aura Card reader, and Spirit Channel for the written word
This has been a beautiful week, especially in terms of seeing the dreams of others coming to fruition around me. It started with my daughter Mikiah sending me a short Aura Card reading at the beginning of the week, and as usual, I was blown away by her capacity to channel the wisdom of Spirit, so succinctly, and accurately. I’ve often wished others could do for me what I do for them, and it’s particularly heart-warming to have this nurturing come from my own daughter. She has a knack for getting straight to the point, in a loving way, with a core message that is very easy to remember!
A few days after giving me the Aura Card reading, Mikiah melted me into puddles of bliss during a private conversation, where (not for the first time), she showered me with very authentic gratitude messages. It’s a beautiful feeling to be validated, celebrated, and reflected back in such positive ways by someone you love and admire. Have you told anyone what you appreciate and value about them recently?
Here is a poem Mikiah just wrote, about gratitude:
A blissful consideration of abundance, for all that we have.
A focus on what is there, rather than what is missing.
A positive outlook –
One that beckons me into the light, saying:
“See all that you have
See all that you are
See the beauty in all –
See as the child does
See that the World speaks,
Hear it Sing
Feel how still the moment is,
How at Peace nature is.
Understand how the mind complicates the simple –
How many stories are written, unwritten and written again
Either the same as the Past, or different.
Can you Be?
If you See,
If you Feel,
If you Listen,
If you Breathe and Taste
With caution not to waste these moments, and the silence in between
Then, you know.
And know you do – because you are.
In the present, we allow.
In the now, we surrender:
Narratives. Stories of the past. Predictions of the future. Concern for outcome. Worry about what was, is or will be.
Active participation requires presence
It is a step away from thought”
I am enjoying watching my daughter step into her role as a healer for others. She is a joy to mentor, and as my husband Stephen, Mikiah’s father, says, “She is a gifted natural”. Mikiah became a Reiki Master with me last year and has begun teaching others, with her spirit guides doing a brilliant job of shaping her unique approach to healing. Mikiah is currently living in Brisbane, and is available for one-one-one healing consults and Aura Card readings. She also works via distance. If you would love to read more of her spirit-channelled writing, or find out more about her work, check out her facebook business page: MIKIAH
Musician, teacher, “Miss Scribble” game-creator, Aura Card reader, and dynamic word-smith
The excitement of others can be soooo beautiful, and sooo infectious! I’ve loved watching the determined dedication my sister Tashka has brought to her latest project, one that has been brewing now for many years. My favourite part of this journey so far is the private video I woke up to yesterday. It totally made my day to see her bouncing up and down like a little kid. Like myself and our brother Kim, Tashka has a fierce work-ethic and there’s nothing more satisfying than having it pay off after so much hard work. Tashka got her first subscriber for her MUSICAL ME project; the first, am I sure, of many to come.
Tash is an incredible, passionate and motivated teacher who inspires others with her enthusiasm and her unique perspectives. She has an ability to think outside the square and come up with very clever, creative solutions that propel us forwards into realising our dreams. MUSICAL ME is a dynamic example of her ability to make learning bucket-loads of fun, whilst making sure it’s in alignment with your core values and is being incorporated into your day to day life in a grounded manner. Check out this amazing program if you would love to take your interest in music a little further, but you’re not quite sure how, or you are a music teacher and you would like some dynamic tools to help your students go from strength to strength. This is the prototype, before the official shiny version goes live next year, so in effect, getting involved at this stage of development means you will be helping to create the final product. And as a thank you for your support, you will be given a very special offer next year when the global roll out occurs!
Reiki healer, Huna Masseur, Rune Card and Book developer, and Aura Card reader
Tristan worked with me as a psychic healing student for many years before becoming one of my first Reiki 1 students last year. During the attunement process, I was astonished when one his Reiki guides stepped in and insisted I include a series of rune symbols during the initiation process. It seemed an entire new branch of Reiki was unfolding in front of me, with Tristan being chosen as the channel for this unique modality.
Tristan has been hard at work creating a set of Rune Cards and a book to go with them, and it’s been fantastic watching meditative creativity blend with methodical step-by-step development. Tristan’s prototype deck features a circular splash of colour inspired by the Aura Cards, with the rune symbols over the top of this. Runes are an ancient alphabet- a series of symbols that have been used in divination, magic and healing for many centuries. They were a first love of mine on my healing journey, so I feel rather honoured to have been used as a channel for heightening Tristan’s spiritual connection with this ancient tradition.
Tristan is at prototype stage, and needs some support! If you would love a Rune Reading, or an entire handmade deck, check out his KICKSTARTER campaign. I still have the rune reading that Tristan did for me during a difficult time in my life. The wisdom he channelled through was beautiful, and spoke to my soul. Tristan is gentle and wise and his rune creation will deeply honour the lineage he has been initiated into by his Reiki and Rune guides.
Healer, marketing consultant, copywriter and editor, improvisation performer and trainer, and creator of The Playground of Possibilities
My day yesterday started with my sister’s bubbling excitement and ended with my Aunty Kay’s wonderful news about her Playground of Possibility cards having arrived from the printers. Some of you attended the workshop Kay ran here in Darwin and might remember the cards. They ask the question “What might be possible for me if….” and each one ends differently. I love these cards! Kay and I sometimes do Skype sessions where I’ll pull a colour card or a flower card for her and she will pull a Playground card for me. The questions always get me thinking deeply about my life, and realising how my beliefs and not-so-helpful storytelling about myself and life might be interfering with my happiness!
This is a profound tool and I’m so excited that Kay is sending me my very own deck for the clinic. I’m hoping I can stock these but you can also contact Kay directly if you would like to get your own deck. Go to NEXTCHAPTER. Kay says: “Even though my crowdfunding campaign is finished, you can still order and pay for a deck there. For one deck, choose the “Transform” reward (or check the other rewards for 3, 5 or 10 decks, or 1 deck plus a Skype call with me).”
Is your aura made from the light that shines out from within you, or is it more like a cloak of many colours? The answer is: both! The aura is made up of many colours and layers of colours from different parts of who you are, the experiences you are having, and the energies you are interacting with.
Every Aura is Different
Aura colours, like people, come in many shapes and sizes.
Your aura is never just one colour: you are far more complex and multi-faceted than that. Nor is your aura static, like a still photograph of a single moment in time, because you are always changing and growing, always affecting and being affected by, the world around you.
There are as many different kinds of auras as there are people, and no two auras are exactly the same.
The reason I haven’t been blogging much over the past few years is because I’ve been hard at work writing a biography about my grandparents and my great uncle Peter Fannin, as well as working on a revision of my grandmothers wildflowers book. All of which takes up most of the writing energy I have!
The lovely thing is, I finally have some time off work to focus on these tasks. My husband, myself and our dog friend Rocky, are currently at a rural property in Nymboida, Northern NSW, living in a tiny home that is half the size of our old bedroom. We’re off grid and I’m in my element, with nature all around me.
Every morning, I either go for a long walk with Rocky, do some work on clearing a fire-break around the tiny house, or go into battle with the monstrous lantana groves. Afterwards, I come back red in the face and warm all over, with my heart thumping loud and hard in my chest. Each activity is giving me all forms of the exercise I know I need to stay healthy: strengthening my muscles, expanding my flexibility, and improving my cardiovascular health. Then I sit down and write for the rest of the day, with breaks here and there for cooking, conversations and gardening. We are usually in bed by 8pm and up again at the crack of dawn.
Not long after we arrived, I found what immediately became my favourite tree on the block, not far from the house, just inside the area that had been designated as “must be cleared” territory by the fire-fighting neighbour. The tree drew me in and enchanted me, even from a distance, and when I got closer I could see it was in full bloom! It seemed so familiar to me, as though I should know what it was… like a friend’s name you’ve forgotten.
The mysterious identity nagged at me for weeks until one day we were in the carpark at Bunnings and I looked up to find a kurrajong in flower beside me. I’d never met this particular kind of kurrajong before, but I just knew it was a kurrajong- no mistaking that flower and leaf shape. Something went click and I started to wonder if my new friend on the block was a kurrajong. I’ve since discovered it’s a brachychiton populneus, a kurrajong native to the east coast of Australia.
I’ve been so busy with writing and lantana-pulling that I haven’t had a chance to visit my new friend in the past week, so I started going in spirit at night. The first time I went, I was amazed by the quantity and diversity of nature spirits around this tree. Even more so, the potency of them. We had a conversation about a near-miss the tree had had, when Stephen and I cut down a messy tangle of dead trees leaning against a live tree, that the previous owner had created during his own unfinished clearing work. The dead trees were precariously balanced and had to come down for safety’s sake but the only way we could safely bring them down was to cut down the tree that was holding them up. Besides which, the supporting tree was in the “you must clear a fire-break around your house” zone.
“Can we please not cut down my favourite tree?” I asked my husband. He agreed. Unfortunately, it was only a few metres away from the messy tangle that did have to come down. We did everything we could to try to get the poor condemned tree and its dangerous load to fall away from the kurrajong. After some strategic chainsaw cutting and ratchet-strap rigging, we went back to the house and waited. Nothing happened for about 15 minutes and then we heard the first cracks and watched from the distance. At first, the messy tangle headed straight for the kurrajong and then everything seemed to pause, as though in slow motion, and gracefully sweep off to one side. The kurrajong lost a few branches, but it survived!
In my night-time spirit-conversation with the kurrajong, it showed me a movie-replay of the event. I could see a cushion of air appear above the kurrajong as the trees came towards it, deflecting everything away from it, as though the kurrajong had protected itself. The attitude behind the image shown felt a little like someone dusting their hands off and putting their hands on their hips in a sassy way, as though to say “I can take care of myself thank you!” Ha!
After this image was shown, I was invited to sit under the tree, and the flowers gave me some healing. It almost felt like a Harry Potter sorting-hat was coming down over my head, but instead of sorting me into some kind of group, it was helping me sort my thoughts. Then I could feel energy lines from my head slowly being cleared all the way down to my feet. Kurrajong species’ definitely have a grounding action! As this happened, I spoke to the tree, and it explained that it was helping me focus my thoughts, rather than wasting time on ideas or lines of thought that weren’t practical.
I’ve been back to visit the tree at night a few times now. Last night I asked the kurrajong flower-spirit for healing, because I was in pain from an old injury that had flared up. The healing began and not long into it, the imagery shimmered and I could feel the kurrajong step back. In it’s place appeared an entirely different flower. In my mind, I kind of zoomed in, the way you would with a camera lens, to get a closer look. At first I was puzzled, then I realised it was an orchid. But I hadn’t seen any orchids of that colour on the block, and I knew from the mood of the shift from one flower to another that this orchid must be somewhere on the block, not far from the kurrajong.
Both the kurrajong and the orchid insisted I had already met the orchid. Confused, I ran though my memory of the many walks and then suddenly remembered seeing a single stem, like a grass stem, with tiny little pods on it that might have been closed flowers. They had the same colour as this orchid. “Is this you?” I asked, showing the orchid my memory. “Yes! I’m in flower now. Come and visit me tomorrow.”
So this morning I dutifully headed off in search for the flower, half-chuckling at myself for believing my night-time imaginings, and wondering how I was going to find such a tiny flower on 100 acres of land. I said hello to the kurrajong on the way past, stopped to photograph a bird, and spent a good 10 minutes searching for the orchid. I knew I’d seen it down near the creek bank somewhere, but where? I was just about to give up when I decided to try one more area. There was a lot of dead wood and bark on the ground and my first few steps almost up-ended me, because there were large holes hidden beneath them. Feeling a bit worried, I started to back away when I looked up and there it was! The orchid, in magnificent bloom!
How beautiful! Anyway, had to share this magic moment with you. On the way back, we visited the strawberry gum we planted a month ago. It’s doing really well and is one of the many bush-tucker plants I want to grow here in the lantana-reclaimed areas. It’s said to bring the flavours out in a dish. We’ve also planted a native mint and a finger lime, and I’d love to plant some macadamias!
With reality creating, it pays to spend time reflecting mindfully on what it is you are intending to create. This meditation helps you do exactly that, incorporating creative visualisation, story-telling and mindfulness mantras that help you make/feel/see the connection between words, feelings and body sensations.
Feeling is as important (possibly more important) than visualisation and affirmations. Or to phrase this a little differently: visualisation and affirmation without adding feeling (emotion and body-based sensation) is like sitting in a car, forgetting to turn the key and wondering why the car won’t go. The affirmations and visualisations are there to evoke a feeling-state. If like attracts like, emanating a feeling/mood that is in alignment with your intention is a good way to attract that intention to you.
Letting go, or non-attachment to outcomes, is a surprisingly important cornerstone of good reality creating. Desire is a fire that drives you to pursue your dreams (rather than sitting on the couch doing nothing), but once the engine has started, we need to balance desire with surrender and faith. Think of desire as something that reveals your underlying values to you, and focus on these values rather than becoming obsessed with pursuing or possessing whatever your desire has fixated upon.
It’s a good idea to keep asking “Why?” you want a specific dream to be realised. And when you get the answer, ask “Why?” again and again to uncover what is really driving you and why. Are these really your dreams? Or is this just what your parents role-modelled for you? Is this really the path to happiness? Or just what you’ve been told will make you happy (or desirable, respected etc) by society and clever social marketing?
Quite often, when I go through this process with my clients, they discover their desires have been conditioned by society or childhood. What they are really looking for is a feeling and they believe that having this car, or that much money, or this success or prestige, or that lifestyle or the perfect man/woman etc…. will somehow give them access to that feeling.
They also tend to believe that if they can’t get the man, car, job, pay-rise etc they won’t be able to have that feeling (of being worthy, happy, respected, valued, vindicated, content, safe etc). This then sets up a very loaded emotional charge around their desire that actually works against them accomplishing their goals. Too much grasping, obsessive, fear-based emotion doesn’t work well when it comes to reality creating. There needs to be some desire, yes, but not fear-based desire, or a hunger that blinds you to the bigger picture of your life and your deeper values.
The best quality intentions that have the best chance of success, are those that are in alignment with your deeper values, your core essence. True happiness comes from intangible things (feelings)… rather than having more things, or more recognition and success. The beauty of using mindfulness meditation in reality creating is that you can actually practise the feeling you are seeking, so that it becomes a new skill, rather than being dependant on external things to deliver that feeling. And the amazing thing is, once you have that feeling, your hunger to pursue it via external means disappears and you relax.
This combination of owning the feeling and relaxing is exactly what then opens your aura up to receiving the very things that will help deliver more of that delicious feeling. You won’t need the new car to feel successful and sexy because you’ve already cultivated this as a mindset, mood or auric feeling-state. The external trappings that you might attract/create from this state then become true reflections of your inner state, rather than compensations for an inner lack… or you might just decide that you don’t need all that stuff to validate or medicate you after all.
Having faith that your higher self is steering your life in directions that are nourishing for you is an approach I love to take. Because then if something my ego-self intended doesn’t happen I can just shrug my shoulders and let go, because I know my higher self has it covered. Either my intention wasn’t right for my higher good, or the timing isn’t right. By gracefully surrendering to my higher will, rather than obsessively trying to push or pull the river of life and shape it according to my oft-deluded ego-will, I can open to the will of Heaven and discover what Spirit wants to bless me with.
Lastly, I’m a great believer in practical action. I have spent too many years as a practitioner groaning inwardly as yet another client says one thing and does another. Are your actions in alignment with your intention? Or are you spending money on lottery tickets rather than investing that money wisely to help you take another small, but very concrete step closer to your dreams? People so often want things now, big things, instantly, without having to do any work to accomplish those dreams. I don’t have any respect for that. If you want something, take practical action to make it happen, don’t just sit on the couch dreaming about it. But first, be very sure that this is what you really want. That shiny new car might make your ego happy (temporarily) but at what cost? A new car in exchange for your freedom, with hefty loan repayments locking you in to working longer hours, having less holidays, and absolutely guaranteeing more stress when unexpected financial pressures come along. Does it really matter that much, the shiny new car? Why do you really want it? What do you imagine it will do for you? Is this desire in alignment with your deeper dreams and your core values?
SATURDAY 2ND SEPTEMBER 2017
9am- 12pm AND 2pm- 5pm
Many years ago, I created a Chakra Meditation book, filled with chakra meditations and contemplation questions. There were 20 in all, with two meditations and contemplations for each colour. While I use the traditional 7-chakra rainbow system, I recognise extra colours for the base, heart and crown chakras. Here in this picture, for example, is one of the contemplation pages for BROWN, which I consider a second frequency associated with the base chakra, alongside the more traditional red colour used to represent this centre.
Some years after that, I began experimenting with drop-dose liquid herbal medicine, where small doses are used to tap into the energetic properties of plants. At first, I made a few mistakes and it took a bit of experimenting to get the dose right. If you go too low you can trigger symptoms that herb would normally treat. Nettles for example, might helps us release old resentments and stored anger from the solar plexus, but if the dose is too small, it might trigger a physical healing crisis with a hot red rash appearing on the solar plexus area.
Once I got the dose right, I began to see and feel the frequency of each herb with greater accuracy. For many years I used the herbs during chakra/aura healing work, by rubbing them over my hands and allowing the spirit of the plants to guide me. All of this research has now culminated in the creation of 20 Chakra Tonics that align with the chakra meditations and contemplation exercises in the book I’d written years earlier. I hadn’t realised until recently that these two projects were going to merge as one!
For a few months now, I’ve been playing happily with the Chakra Tonics and am delighted with how effective they are. It might take me a bit longer to pull everything together as a full package, but you’re welcome to come have a dabble on the closing down day. Shuffle the Chakra Meditation card deck to find out which Chakra Tonic is right for you, or tell me a little about physical, emotional and psychological challenges you are facing and I can help you choose the right blend, or the right combination of Herbal Chakra Tonic with Aura Spray.
HERBAL STOCK TO CLEAR
I’m about to begin travelling back and forth between Northern NSW and Darwin, which is another reason I’ve wanted to condense or down-size my product range. Being a chakra/aura therapist, I couldn’t resist grouping the ‘herbs for sale’ according to chakras. Each chakra section on the sale day will include liquid herbal ‘singles’ and ‘blends’. Singles are one herb on it’s own, blends are a combination of herbs working together.
In the Brown Base Chakra ‘single herb section for example, I have horsetail, which is rich in minerals, especially silica… a beautiful, earthy herb that builds strength on a musculoskeletal level. Astragalus builds deep strength into the immune system while also improving tone and resilience, being an incredible preventative for colds and flus and a brilliant remedy for prolapse of any kind.
In the blended section for this chakra/colour I have some energy restorative blends, full of herbs that restore depleted adrenal function and help rebuild us when we’ve become run down or are recovering from illness. There’s also a blend of herbs for restoring and strengthening the immune system.
In some chakra sections, there are herbal tablets for sale, and some dried herbs.
If you need a herbalist/naturopath while I’m away, let me introduce you to the lovely Michelle Brown Some of you may remember meeting her when she was apprenticed to me years ago, while completing clinic time for her degree. Michelle is very intuitive and insightful, and shares my passion for holism, both in her whole-person approach to naturopathy and her grasp on the importance of whole-plant synergy and food as medicine.
Over the past few weeks I’ve been testing out my new Wish-Pillows, which are soooo much fun! My inner child really loves them. I keep mine beside the bed and some night I snuggle up with it. I love breathing deep the scent of Schisandra, Shatavari and Rose Petals, while I make my wishes.
Schisandra has a ‘Synchronicity Pink’ frequency to it… for anyone who doesn’t have an Aura Card set, this means it’s a magical herb that helps us to have more faith in (and attunement with) divine timing. And in all the ancient textbooks, Shatavari (wild asparagus), comes with a warning: “Do not use if you don’t want flying dreams’. I mean, really, who wouldn’t want to have flying dreams? Perhaps if you were scared of heights….
…but really, whether or not you have flying dreams isn’t really the point here. The flying dreams are a metaphor for freedom; for rising above what you might otherwise by mired within. Like an eagle looking down from a great height, Shatavari gives us the capacity to let go, step back and see the bigger picture. It’s this letting go, this detachment, that is such an important and often overlooked aspect of reality creating. Intending without releasing is like deciding what you want at a restaurant but forgetting to tell the waiter!
Another oft overlooked aspect of reality-creating, or making good wishes, is the ability to come from the heart. Rose-Petals centre us within the heart chakra and help us tap into the high-frequency positive emotions that help empower intent, like gratitude, forgiveness and unconditional love.
I’m madly packing for the big move at the moment, but hopefully once that’s done I’ll have time to write up the Spell-Scrolls that go with the Wish-Pillows. And me being me, I’ll naturally make sure there is a practical side to all of this, with a quality guided meditation that helps you focus not only on the more esoteric side of making wishes, but the grounded actions you can take to make your dreams a reality.
HOMEOPATHIC EMOTIONAL 1st AID KITS
This small kit of five remedies can be used for emotional emergencies. Gelsenium, for example, is brilliant for performance anxiety, where we freeze up while on stage, speaking publically, or being interviewed for a new job. It’s particularly good for anticipatory anxiety, where we are trembling and having trouble with our breathing because we’re getting ourselves worked up about something we are dreading.
Nat Mur helps us with grieving, where the grieving state has become stuck and unable to resolve itself. Nux Vom is the premier bear-with-sore-head remedy, perfect for terrible hangovers and the grumpiness that comes from burned-out, stressed workaholism. Silicea is for weak boundaries and empathic/emotional over-sensitivity, while Chamomilla is the famous teething remedy, great to use when we are acting like an impossible-to-please child who’s having a tantrum or whinging because we can’t get our own way or we’re in pain. I’ll soon be adding a wee scroll to the kits describing how and when to use each remedy.
BOOKS AND CARDS
The big aura book and most recent Aura Card deck are temporarily unavailable, pending a wee make-over sometime next year. In the meantime, I have a few guidebooks left and have rummaged up some old decks, for various prices depending on whether or not I’ve had to replace missing cards with hand-drawn ones.
There are a few Transformation books left, and plenty of the Flower Spirit card and book set. For more insight into the later, check out my flower spirit site. The flower site features the book and blogs about my wildflower spirit journeys, and the two people who fostered my deep love for wildflowers and wildflower photography, my grandmother Anne and grand uncle Peter, who have both passed away now.
I also have some books to give away on the day of the closing down sale, a mix of old and new, that need good homes. Topics range from the natural environment through to Aboriginal art, with the odd fiction book and magazine thrown in. There’s a laminator, a deck of cards, and so on.
Hope you can make it on the day!
If you are lacking something….
It’s usually because whatever you value, isn’t being valued in some way….
What is your currency?
Where is your poverty wound?
Is it money, love, time, success, health, friendship, connection, recognition/admiration….
…. you don’t have enough of? (Or something else entirely?)
What do you really value?
Sometimes your sense of lack will tell you about your values…
Shaping and informing them, or being shaped or formed by.
In other words, lack can teach you how to really value something:
If you don’t have something that blesses your life, you certainly appreciate it when it arrives…
After a while we might take it’s presence for granted and get a little sloppy in caring for our values with actions that back those values up in the real world.
If you are lacking something….
It’s usually because whatever you value, isn’t being valued in some way….
Are you looking after and caring for what you value…
Or letting what you value/love slip through your fingers?
Are you allowing it to be taken from you…
Or giving it away too freely?
If so, where are your boundaries?
Where are YOU?
Step up and own your space.
Are you open to receiving from the world around you?
Will you accept support and gifts of love?
Will you stay open to what the world around you has to offer?
By keeping your eyes, heart and mind open, you will see gifts of light and love coming your way….
Attuned to this belief, this truth….
You will align yourself with abundance
In order to receive,
Focus on deserving and connection…
Give what you want to receive…
Share what you value without giving everything away
Find ways to give that enrich you and others
Because you are in no way separate from the world around you
Perhaps what you value isn’t being valued by others…
Or you aren’t feeling valued by others
And it will never matter when people around you have other values
And always remember
The Universe gifts us in many blessed way that come in many different forms…
Are you focused on your abundance, or your poverty?
Are you fixated on lack, or the richness that surrounds you…
Even if it’s not in your preferr3ed form.
By celebrating what you do have, can do, and can be
You liberated yourself and set yourself free
From a fixation of poverty.
We are all rich in some ways,
And poor in others.
Will you let your poverty completely define you?
Or will you use it as a power that strengthens you…
Like a person of power always does?
While celebrating the blessings
However small or insignificant they may seem…
For this appreciation, gratitude, VALUING…
Is the bridge back to a fullness of being
Give and be,
what you most wish to receive
For many years now, my husband and I have been dreaming about ‘what next?’ The conversation started in 2013, after our youngest left home for university, and for a while, the ideas came thick and fast, one crazy idea being replaced with the next. Move to Edinburgh or Prague? Sell up, get a motorhome, and explore Australia? Move to the east coast, or back to Alice? At first, I found the idea of uprooting myself unsettling. Professionally, it would mean starting all over again, or doing something completely different, and I wasn’t quite ready to shed my skin and step out of my comfort zone.
Nor, it seems, was my husband. He became engrossed in a local project, so we stayed put and the dreams took a momentary back seat. When the project came to an end, the ‘what next?’ obsession kicked back in with a vengeance. This time, my husband really was ready. Me? Not so much! And yet, I knew from all the signs and whisperings from Spirit that I was being asked to let go of who I was… to have the courage to lose sight of the shore so that I might discover new horizons. Somehow I made it through last year in one piece, but there were many times I broke down in tears because I was afraid and my husbands enthusiasm was pushing me to my limits. I felt like I was trying to stop him from leaping empty handed into any void he could find whilst simultaneously coaxing myself closer to the edge.
The year started innocently enough, with me finally tackling the unfinished paint-job in the upstairs bathroom. Before I knew it, my husband had arranged for the entire house to be painted professionally… and within a month, the new coat of paint somehow evolved into a complete renovation: kitchen, floors, built-in wardrobes and more. Blink, and I have a new house! My husband certainly doesn’t drag his feet, but I dug mine in fiercely when he started talking about selling up and buying property in places he’d never been to. Tasmania, Tasmania, Tasmania… was the echoing mantra being whispered in my ear. He wanted to be cold. Understandable, when you live in Northern Australia!
We compromised. He promised not to suddenly buy a property he’d never seen in a place he’d never been to and I happily agreed to moving, as long as we could go travelling and get a feel for the places he’d fallen in love with while surfing for properties on-line. Tasmania, it turns out, wasn’t it. Neither was East Gippsland, but we had to go there to work this out. You can read more about this epic 5 week adventure in a series of blogs I wrote on my wildflower site. (Wildflower site? For me, travel = finding wildflowers)
My first blog “From mountain devils to coastal pigfaces” tells the story of the trek between Sydney and Merimbula. From here we crossed the border into Victoria. “From Pelicans to Paper Daisies and Love on the Grass Courts” takes us from Gypsy Point and Mallacoota, through the alpine mountains covered in summer wildflowers all the way through to Melbourne, in time for a big family party. The third blog, “Finding Lothlorien”, recounts the story of rediscovering my early childhood home in Tasmania.
For me, this 5 week journey wasn’t just my favourite adventure so far (it hands down beat all the overseas travel), it made the idea of moving real. Finally I was able to picture myself in a new place, living a new life. Tantalising hints of a new identity and new possibilities coaxed me out of just humouring my husband and holding space for him, into full-blown enthusiasm and hunger for change. Finally we were on the same page, but we both knew that we hadn’t found our new home yet and some financial realities were kicking in; this meant dreaming smaller and thinking outside the square.
Come March, we were off exploring again. My husband had finally relaxed the reins on his relentless mission to ‘get cold’ and we set off on a journey to check out northern NSW. There was one tiny little place Stephen had discovered on the map that just kept calling him back, time and time again, and it was time to meet this beautiful place in person. Enter Nymboida, stage left, dressed in misty cloud and soaked in heavy rain. Gorgeous!
The first property we visited, we left the car on the side of a dirt road and waded thigh-deep through two fast-flowing river crossings in drizzling rain, not game to risk taking the car through, especially given we didn’t know how much higher the rivers were going to rise. Are we going the right way, we wondered? Was the property even within walking distance? The craziness of it all was the best part of the fun. There was no phone reception so we traipsed on, hoping we were taking the correct turns at intersections and then suddenly… there it was!
A charming octagonal wooden house, with the owner smiling as we puffed our way up her steep hill. “You passed the first test!” she called. We had no idea what she meant until she explained that she gets city-goers visiting who think “What a sweet house!” but they have no concept at all about the reality of living remote, getting cut off when the roads flood, the very small power system, the outdoors compost toilet and so on. We were soaked to the bone but the weather hadn’t put us off, which was a good sign in her books. This lovely lady was a feng shui consultant and a healer, in a very down-to-earth kind of way. My kind of person.
We had a warm cup of tea, and then our host gave Stephen a healing because he’d slipped off the edge of one of the river crossings and bruised his thigh. “One of the best healings I’ve ever had,” he declared the next day, surprised at how quickly his body was recovering. We loved this octagonal house because it reminded us of the house my father had wanted to build at Lothlorian, but we were ideally hoping to find larger acreage with more bushland on it.
The next day we went to inspect the second property on our list, bhe real estate agent got us lost. He had no idea, really, where he was going. We were disappointed and dropped him back to his car at the intersection and went exploring in the mountains. On the way back, a car seemed to be following us. Then it began flashing its lights at us. We pulled over and discovered it was the real estate agent, excitedly explaining that he’d worked out where our property was. We went back to the intersection and he climbed into our 4WD and showed us the way.
We thought all our Christmases were coming at once until we got bogged in the very long driveway that led to the block. “Go forwards and try to get up on the bank” said the real estate agent, so we did and became even more deeply wedged in the oozing mud that was hidden beneath a deceptively firm road surface. So began the mammoth task of digging ourselves out. Our first round of rescuers got themselves bogged and unbogged three times before getting anywhere even close to our car. All hail the cable winch, and the friendly locals who helped us!
Being claimed by the bog monster meant staying put much longer than we’d planned, and it was a few days before we managed to get down to the block itself and see it in person. In the meantime, we went to visit a third property. The land itself was stunning, with cliff-face, running streams and adjacent nature reserves. I was in love, but at the same time felt slightly intimidated by the majestic scope of it, and not confident we could convince a bank to finance it.
I pushed that puzzle to the back of my mind and took an impromptu train-ride to Brisbane to do some magic with my sister and daughter, who had pointed out that the three of us were 44, 33 and 22 years old in age, so it might be a good time to do some ancestral family healing (on the 22nd of the 3rd, no less!). By the time I came back, all filled up with sista-love, Stephen had seen the bog-property and encouraged me to take a walk and check it out. He did his best not to seem too excited, because he didn’t want to influence me, but I got the feeling he liked it.
The walk took me up and down through small valleys over little bridges and finally led to a raised area that was cleared, with a tiny little modern hut on it, built top-end style. I felt isolated and nestled in, with trees all around me. There were no people-sounds, just birds singing and the wind blowing through the trees. The block had been cleared some 40 years earlier and this fit nicely with my dream of protecting native land and/or rehabilitating damaged land. More than anything, there was a feeling of being home; some special, indescribable something that went ‘click’. When I came back and told Stephen what I’d felt, he told me he’d felt it too.
Fast forward to now, and we are packing up the home we have lived in for the past 19 years and I am loving every moment that takes me a step closer to a new life. August 2017 will be my last month of work in our Palmerston home, with a closing down sale on the 2nd of September. Then we will be driving off into the sunset, for some retreat time at our new Nymboida home, which we are affectionately dubbing ‘Lothlorien Valley’. While we are there, I’m hoping to finish the biography I’ve been writing about my great uncle Peter, famous for his plant walks at the Rock and his role in the Western Desert Art Movement in the early 70’s. Sadly, Peter passed away recently.
We’ll be back in the new year, ready for business as usual at a new premises in Darwin (location yet to be announced). I might be able to do some Skype work before I get back, but I can’t make any promises! And come sept-oct next year, we’ll most likely drive off into the sunset and do it all over again… retreat no 2, another biography, another happy Om returning to work in Darwin in the new year with batteries recharged.
Blessings and Love
An excerpt from Aura Colour Therapy, written by Omanisa
Expression Blue has depth and sparkle, like an azure blue sky reflected on the surface of a lake, with little glints of white sparkles and streaks, where sunlight strikes the water. On a feeling level, it feels energetic and lively, like a passionate flow of conversation, with animated hand and body movements being used to convey meaning. This colour is particularly therapeutic for anyone wearing grey colours in or around the Throat Chakra.
Often worn by writers, artists, vocalists, journalists, public speakers and people working in the communication industry, Expression Blue gives us a knack for composing with words and communicating with others. Besides representing a personality type, Expression Blue can appear in the aura when we are going through a temporary phase of heightened creative self-expression.
This colour liberates us by giving us a voice. Our voice is our personal truth; our way of being in the world, expressing our opinions and contributing to a global discussion. Our personal truth is a conglomerate of our values, beliefs, ideas, ideals, attitudes and ethics. When we know our personal truth, we know who we are and who we are not; we know what we stand for and what is important to us. The phrase ‘being true to ourselves’ means living according to our personal truth
Before we can express our personal truth, we need to know what it is. Expression Blue helps us slow down and hear our inner voice. Often, we use creativity as a means to access this inner wisdom. If we cut off from our creativity and our inner voice for too long, we loose touch with our true selves. Sometimes we become too busy and forget to be still enough to hear the creative voice that wants to express through us. This can also happen when we use all our energy being creative for others instead of for ourselves. Creative people need to ensure they are making time for creative reconnection with themselves. They must take care that the pressure to perform on a creative level does not destroy their love for creating. The creative process is highly therapeutic and just as important as the creative end product. Creative expression sets the inner child free, bringing us a joy that nourishes the soul. Expression Blue can be evidence of creative skills being used well, but it can just as easily be a timely reminder to reconnect with our inner muse.
This colour challenges us to speak our truth without violating the right of others to do the same. When Expression Blue is well balanced within us, we celebrate differences between people rather than feeling threatened by them. Everybody has their own personal truth and each person’s truth is true for them, even if it is not true for someone else. It is important to know ourselves and share our truth via self-expression without hiding away for fear of being judged. Creative expression is a healthy way to discover, explore and express our personal truth without forcing it on others.
Our personal truth may differ from that of family members and friends or the society we live in. When people around us hold vastly different views from our own, it can be difficult to maintain loyalty to our own truth. Other people may judge us or put pressure on us to conform to their views. We can then become lost, confused and uncertain about who we really are, especially if our personal truth was not that strong and clear to begin with, or we tend to have trouble maintaining personal boundaries.
When people feel threatened by differences of opinion and belief, they can become judgemental and argumentative. They say ‘my truth is right, yours is wrong’. Some people go out of their way to avoid contact with people who have a truth different from their own, almost as though they are afraid their own personal truth will be contaminated. Some parents take this approach with their children, carefully shielding them from any unwanted influences.
Exposure to different perspectives, however, helps us grow. In deciding who we choose to be as individuals, we occasionally need to release old opinions and values because they no longer fit us. Perhaps they never really suited us in the first place. Part of developing our personal truth involves consciously deciding whether to keep or discard conditioning from childhood, family and society. As we establish our personal truth, we make decisions about what works for us and what does not. This is an ongoing process.
People who wear too much Expression Blue can become unbalanced and tip over into Zealous Blue, or they may become a little obsessed with telling the truth at all costs. These people self-disclose information that other people really do not need to hear, often to their own detriment and the dismay of others around them. Shaman Blue is an excellent therapeutic colour for excessive or inappropriate honesty.
From my book, Aura Colour Therapy:
This vibrant, hot aura colour can vary in shade from red-orange to orange-red. Small quantities of red-tinged Ambition Orange can give us the drive and single minded determination to accomplish incredible feats, overcome great odds and transform tragedy into triumph. We all need a warm fire in the belly when going after goals, but Ambition Orange can get a little too hot, making us feverish with the desire to possess something or someone.
Obsession can make us pushy, giving us tunnel vision and warping our values. We may know what we want, but we can’t always have it. Sometimes we need to compose ourselves gracefully and accept the need to let go and move in a different direction. Have a good think about what you would really be prepared to give up in order to acquire your desires. Not all prices are worth paying. Are you setting your sights too intently on one goal without keeping balance and sanity in your life?
Like a burning hot coal, Ambition Orange can burn emptiness into the aura, giving us an insatiable hunger. These auric black holes are childhood wounds that constantly consume energy without ever becoming satisfied. I sometimes call them ‘black hole drivers’ because they shape our behaviour, subconsciously driving us to seek outside ourselves for whatever it was we didn’t get in childhood. And like black holes, no matter how much we fill them, they stay hungry.
For example, you might constantly strive for success because you never received praise from one or both parents during childhood. This initial lack inspires you to attain great heights you might not otherwise have aimed for and this is wonderful, so long as you are not selling your soul in the process. A really deep wound will drive you to constantly achieve more and more, but you will never truly feel successful and you may even sabotage yourself because you don’t really believe in yourself.
Ambition Orange can also represent addictive biochemical and neurological states stimulated by external substances, people and situations. People, praise, sex, jobs, drugs, food, games, money, success and status are all examples of externally sourced keys we use to unlock or access our favourite internal states. We need to learn how to access these feel-good internal states of mind naturally, without becoming dependent upon ever greater quantities of external stimuli.
What it is you are being hungry, intense, possessive or obsessive about? What need are you trying to get met? Can you find a healthier way to meet this need? The deeper essence of whatever it is you are chasing out there in the world, is something you already have within you and around you, so ‘cool it’. Relax and take time to smell the roses. Life is right here, right now, just waiting for you to realise it has been with you all along, waiting for your engagement and offering you simple treasures with genuine depth of value.
Using creative visualisation, imagine finding a safe way to lift some of those hot coals out of your inner fire and cool them off in the water. Let them melt away. Keep doing this until your inner fire calms down! Cooling colours like Patience Green, Generosity Green, Authenticity Green, Healing Green, Watchful Blue, Freedom Blue and Mother Blue can be very soothing for excess fire. You can heal empty black holes with colours like Abundance Green, Soul Retrieval Blue, Clarity Yellow, Happiness Yellow, Gold and Silver. Ambition Orange itself is generally too strong to use therapeutically. If you want to be decisive and active, use Strength Red. If you want to recover your passion, use Creative Red. If you want to set and achieve goals, work with Manifestation Orange.
An excerpt for my book Aura Colour Therapy, affectionately known by clients and students as ‘the Big Book’:
I love using aura colours to help myself heal. If I realise I am being overly cautious and fearful about stepping forwards, I consider which colours reflect this state, such as Conservative Brown and Anxiety Yellow. Thinking about these colours gives me insight into my own attitudes and behaviours and how they may have developed. From here, I can make quality decisions about how I would rather be feeling and behaving and select colours to meditate upon that will invoke or facilitate this preferred state, such as Playful Orange and Happiness Yellow.
When I use aura colours during consultations with clients, not only do they give me insights into the client, they also give me ideas for healing approaches we could take. While looking at the overall layout of colours and discussing the issues these colours bring up, the client and I can create an individually tailored healing plan with colour therapy woven throughout.
During an aura reading, my client Celeste told me that she was concerned about the presence of Detachment Blue in her Heart Chakra. This colour can make us emotionally cold towards others and my client recognised this as the underlying cause for most of the issues she was struggling with. This colour might shut the heart down, but in doing so, it also protects the heart. We needed to understand why Celeste felt the need to protect her heart, and who or what she needed to protect it from. The surrounding colours gave us clues, as well as providing ideas for treatment approaches.
With Animal Spirit Brown also appearing in Celeste’s layout, I decided to take her on a guided meditation and introduce her to her animal spirit guide. People wearing Detachment Blue over the heart often have a wounded inner child with trust issues. Wounded inner children usually don’t like people, but they love and trust animals. Her aura also featured Soul Retrieval Blue, so with her animal as the guide, we used creative visualisation to travel into the past and discover when she first shut down her heart and why. This journey included rewriting a traumatic past event and reclaiming her capacity to trust.
Once we had dealt with the underlying issues and repaired the aura, we used creative visualisation and colour breathing to reduce the excess quantity of Detachment Blue in the aura and replace it with Wholehearted Pink and Generosity Green.